FOG

Today I had a doctrs appointment in Dubai. I usually love to drive to Dubai because where I live now I can see some of the nicest mountains. I usually drive and think of how Allah made them and how strong they are. Well today I didnt even see them. There was so much fog i coould not see anything. At first I was scared and wanted to pull over and wait or let things get better. Then i wanted t cry because i was so frustrated I didnt want t miss my appointment and I didnt was to drive. Then I felt helpless,a dn them i just felt like go on just doo it. SO I did and i found a car to follow. They had on their blinkers and i just kept up with them.


Then i thought about this.

this is my recent life
I was in a huge fog

i wanted to see the beauty that my husband haveing 2 wives had. I waned to just admire him as my husband and see his strength.
however all i did was feel unsure
i was scared
i cried
i was frustrated
i was so many emotions.

now, alhumduillah my head is out the cloud

please make dua for me that this is not temporary

i pray that allah keeps my head out of the fog
allow me to see what is right in front of me.
so many things i missed
big signs
huge boulders
maybe it was for the best that he never let me see all the things that could haev hurt me
i think I was hurt enough
but alhumduillah he allowed me to go around the boulders and signs
he was that car that guided my way
may he always do that

as i close this chaptter in my life i look forward too many new trips as long as I am guided.