I AM DOING THIS SO MAYBE PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND ME A BIT BETTER.
When I say my husband will no doubt try to get married again if and when he divorces this wife I am not saying this out of
anything he said directly but more from my own life experiences.
For me I have seen my great grand parents
Get married because of a pregnancy and then divorce as
soon as she gave birth. One week later he remarried a woman he was dating while he was married to my great grand mother.
i see my grand parents divorce because my grand father cheated on her so many times she stopped counting. This man is 80 and until recently has a girlfriend my age. He has always had not just a woman but WOMEN.
this is his nature.
now he has
decide to practice Islam,
Alhumduillah, and remarry my grandmother because he says he sewed all his wild oats. HE knew back then he could have married other women in Islam but he did not want that life style then. While he was Muslim he did not practice. Now he has started and wants to make a mends with his family for tearing them apart and not being there for them when they were children and to give what ever time he has left to my grandmother whom he has always loved and adored but could not change his nature for no matter how hard he tried
this is a man that every birthday he was with her all 40 yrs they have been divorced. this is a man that gave her his last each and
every time she
was in need.
This was a man that would never move to far from her so he could in his own way protect her. He was there for us grand kids and great grand kids.
But think of what could have been if they had stayed married. If for whatever reason she could have accepted being a co wife or he
didn't feel like it was wrong to have 2 wives but
ok to have 2,3,4 girlfriends...... the logic here is screwed up. My grand mother spent 40 yrs
loving this man from afar wanting to be his wife ......if only.......if only he could just love only her....... so she spent yrs depressed, unhappy and alone...........
this is not the life i want.
then my own parents........
well my dad is a DOG with capital letters.
my mother caught him cheating the week they got married and by the time i was 2 she was so fed up she threw him out a window. He spent several years excuse my language but Whore hopping from woman to woman until he married my first step mom and then he only cheated every now and then. my second step mom was into husband sharing but not as a wife only as a one time thing. she would allow him to go out and as she said "do his business" a few times a year no questions asked. I am sorry...
ewwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!
My mother spent her life alone, unhappy , depressed, and a single mom. She did not remarry until late in life. She suffered a great deal
because she longed for companionship from a man but
didn't get many offers. She was "used goods with a child" she did the best she could but as she got older she said to me maybe being able to accept my dad with another woman would have been better than the life she and I had.
She loved him very much and even though he was only Muslim to marry my mom, if he had chosen to marry again
instead of cheat things would
have been better for us.
my uncles are also dogs...MUSLIM DOGS
one had a girlfriend kill herself because of his cheating.....
the other had a baby outside of his marriage...
then I have aunts.......on both sides non
Muslimman please they run threw men like underwear....most times
because they cheated on them.....i cannot count the times i heard them say that no go good so and so he was with.that B****.
My aunt that is on my moms side that is Muslim her husband remarried and she divorced him. She THOUGHT she
could not handle it. She never even tried.
She never even gave it a chance. Her children grew up with him she was left alone. How sad is that. She later
regretted her choice and they did remarry; but look at the time she lost.
My friends that are not
Muslim please they have divorced
because of cheating. Not all my friends but
alot of them.
I know I am not the only woman in the world that knows of people that have been cheated on, lied to, and whatever else men do.
so not I am not looking for a person to agree with me and say oh poor baby....
what I want is for people to understand and say oh this is why.......
she
ain't crazy
she just sees that a man if it is in his nature will have more than one woman.....i am not saying all men are like that......but for the ones that are...if you are lucky or unlucky enough to marry one of them you have to think and think hard......you have to either b e
willing to accept what they are and not kid your self into thinking it is a phase....
cause my grand dad is 80 like i said.....or know that you cant deal and remove yourself from it.
for me I would rather accept it because deep down i know what i have.
Yes he gets on my last nerve
yes he is sick
alot of times
no he does not work but he lives off money he won from the law suit for
being smashed between ad bus a tow truck and his
monthly disability. so
like i said he makes more than some that have jobs.
yes he acts like a boy wanting to be a man at times
yes his wants are bigger than his needs
yes he
should wait on Allah
Yes he should do many things
but the fact is
he
LOVEs Allah
He
prayes each and every day.
sunnah, and everything else
he pays
zakatgives
suddakahdoes
dawah work
he is good to me most times
he tries to
guide me in
Islam giving me advice
classes
information
making sure my kids learn
arabic and
Quranmaking sure my son learn what he needs to learn as a young boy, and young man
teaches him
duasteaches him how to pray correctly
teaches him how to behave in a Mosque
teaches him how to do many thing
he shows my daughters he loves them
spoiled my baby rotten
takes them out
gives them flowers
takes them out for daddy daughter time
these are things that are
important to me and i do not see why i should give them up because he has this on flaw, grant it is a big huge flaw but its a Halal one none the less.
No i did not have to allow her to live in my home, but i am still glad i did. Even with all the drama I know in my heart what i did was good for me. I believe she was just the wrong person. no matter if she was in my home or her own.
It allowed me to see how strong i really am
it allowed me to love harder than i ever have
it allowed me to depend on Allah more than i ever have
and more than that my kids
didnt know
anything was wrong......they
didnt even know how hurt i was. So to them they still think good of the big "P".
so for me i would rather
accept that this man i have
si the way he is. I will not try to change him. I will accept him. love him and support him and whoever he decides to marry if he does remarry....... maybe he wont.....but i will not be the one
trying to talk him out of it.
yup i scream I am done cause i am human i do
have feelings and at times i feel
like i just cannot do it or why should i do it.
then i think and i know why I do
this life is short
why sweat the small stuff
after having my husband die in my arms i know life is too short to waste on things you cannot change.
love hard while you can
let
people know u love them
give while you can
pray while you can
cause once your gone it is too late
now i do have a few positive men
my mothers husband
Allah should
have bottled him. He would NEVER think of marring anyone. she is the kindest man and puts my mother first. HE has from day one.
Her needs come before his.
but not all of us are that lucky.
not all of us will ever come close.
my mothers best friend have been a co wife for over 17 yrs
my mothers friend was the 1 wife and she opened her home and heart to the other woman.
yes she said it was an adjustment but it all worked out well and they love each other and are best friends.
they live in the same home an
Love it.
they have a bond and they
dint let petty things get in their way
this man loves and adores them both
he treats them well
and they in return are happy
this is what i want to achieve.